Usahawan Sekolah

Beberapa hari yang lepas aku membaca kembali buku Rich Dad Poor Dad karya Robert Kiyosaki. Buku mengenai financial literacy yang biasanya tak di ajar disekolah sekolah juga di Cambrigde mahupun Oxford.

Dalam satu bahagian itu aku tertarik dengan ayat dari Rich Dad "study smart so you can own a corporation" yang bertentangan dengan pendidikan resmi dari Poor Dad "study snart so you can work with big corporation". Aku jadi tertarik dengan usaha Robert dan Mike anak Rich Dad yang berusaha untuk memulakan perniagaan semenjak dari sekolah lagi.

Beberapa minggu lepas aku terlihat siri baru Dunia Baru yang mengisahkan kehidupan kampus remaja yang baru masuk Unisel. Salah seorangnya itu amat mengagumi Donald Trump dan menjadi pengedar air SITO. Selang beberapa episod pula masa orentasi itu mamat ini dgn Peirre Andre register kat salah satu persatuan dan mendapat cenderahati berupa minuman mineral dalam setiap beg pendaftaran. Kerana akal terlalu panjang untuk menjual, dia ini re-register banyak kali, so banyakla dia dapat air mineral yang boleh dijual kemudian hari.

Lantas aku teringat kisah kisah masa lalu semasa di asrama ada antara rakan aku juga menjadi usahawan yang "berjaya". Semasa aku bersekolah dulu, untuk lelaki la tak tahu aku perempuan buat apa, mereka ini juga berjaja. Banyak untung wo ........ loaded beb dia orang ini.

Antara yang dijual mengikut kefamesan barang

1. Mee segera Bismi - sebab dia murah 30 sen satu
2. Mee Segera Maggi - dia mahal sikit dari Bismi harga 40 sen satu
3. Tapi kan sebenarnya yang paling top adalah rokok. Rokok dunhill dan gudang garam yang paling laris. Benson & Hedges kata dia orang utk orang orang tua ajer. Betul kut pasal arwah bapak aku memang hisap rokok B&H.
4. Heater - Untuk masak Maggi - satu RM 12.

Masak Maggi dalam baldi cuci pakaian, sabar ajer la aku beramai ramai. Macam kenduri wo koridor asrama selepas pukul 11.30pm.

Tapi sayang, usahawan usahawan yang berjaya ini hanya berjaya berniaga kat sekolah ajer. Semuanya yang berniaga dulu, yang berjaya menjejaki cara Poor Dad dalam buku Robert itu.

Bila la depa depa ini nak own corporation sendiri

MyTeam vs Malaysia

Kononnya aku nak ke stadium untuk tengok perlawanan bola tersebut. Tetapi memandangkan aku ada hal yang nak diuruskan di Seremban petang Ahad tuh. Aku simpankan ajer hasrat. Kalau sempat aku terus ke Stadium. Kalau tak aku tengok ajerla kat rumah.

Walaupun Arc tak berapa meminati bola, tetapi untuk siri/program MyTeam malam malam tuh dia suka layan gak. Jadi dia pun tengok la juga malam tuh bersama aku. Tapi tak adalah seghairah aku menjerit ke atau mengomel masa tengok bola tuh.

Umum tahu MyTeam kalah. Utusan tag line Tahniah Malaysia, Syabas MyTeam, Berita Harian pula Skuad Malaysia Menang Tipis. Apakah sinonimnya tag ini di dada akhbar Malaysia. BANYAK sebenarnya cuma ada yang tak nampak apa dia lebih lebih lagi pegawai pegawai kanan FAM. Ego bodoh!

Anak aku yang tak tahu main bola pun tahu menilai kekuatan dalaman yang ada pada MyTeam. Seperti kata Shebby, program ini bukan untuk menunjukkan kehebatannya mengemudi pasukannya dengan masa singkat tetapi lebih kepada ingin membawa sukan nombor satu ini ke persada yang telah lama kita lepaskan.

Dari kelompok 80 pasukan terbaik dunia sekarang telah turun ke pasukan ke 130+ dunia. Mana silapnya aturan perjalanan bolasepak kita. Mana perginya kewibawaan kita yang pernah menjadi jaguh bolasepak dirantau ini.

Sebenarnya inilah yang ingin dikupas oleh masyarakat melalui program MyTeam ini. Memang tujuannya untuk mencari kelemahan kita sendiri. Bukan mencari sebab untuk memalukan. Jika kita tak mengaku mana kelemahan kita mana bisa kita perbetulkan keadaan.

Ada pegawai Ego bodoh tak dapat menerima hakikat ini.

Aku dulu pernah bergaduh dengan orang ramai semata mata aku memberikan kepercayaan kepada skuad Hatem Sousi. Padahal aku baru ajer masuk kerja dah pandai lorat dengan orang orang yang dah lama kerja kat kilang tuh. Aku sendiri sanggup ambil cuti untuk melihat mereka bermain di Stadium Shah Alam dalam Piala Dunia Remaja yang diadakan pada tahun 1996. Ake defend mereka walaupun kalah. Aku kata mereka boleh menjadi tulang belakang kepada skuad senior yang sedia ada. Itu la dia Gilbert Cassidy, Saravanan, Khalid Jamlus, Chow See Yen. Mereka mereka ini yang kan mencorakkan masa depan bolasepak negara. Memang mereka kalah tetapi mereka bermain seperti orang Eropah.

Tetapi bola tetap bola. Keputusan tetap menjadi ukuran walau baik mana pun main. Kalau kalah ajer tak menang pun wajar di diagnos. Aku mula menjadi menyampah bila mereka mula bermain untuk negeri masing. Hilang semangat seperti mana mereka didalam skuad remaja dulu.

Keluarga aku dulu memang rapat dengan Dato' Mazlan Harun, bekas pengurus pasukan Selangor. Jadi sedikit sebanyak aku tahu perjalanan Bola Sepak Negara. Di tempat aku membesar, aku membesar dan bermain bersama Assrof Hanafiah, tinggal dikawasan yang sama dengan Yap Wai Loon dan kadang kadang bermain bersama Mat Zan Mat Aris, bekas Jurulatih Wilayah Persekutuan dan Terengganu juga bekas pertahanan Malaysia.

Bola Sepak dan kehidupan bukan baru bagi aku. Aku lihat mereka ini bukan berfikiran professional. Bagi mereka bolasepak itu bukan satu status yang seharusnya diletakkan di tempatnya. Bagi mereka adalah mendapatkan duit sambil bergembira main bola. Memang bola adalah satu permainan tapi sayang mereka tidak menterjermah permainan ini kepada satu pekerjaan mulia yang harus diletakkan ke persada yang sepatutnya. Mereka gembira mendapat duit untuk dibelanjakan, mereka gembira dilabelkan sebagai budak disko. (Tak adil jika aku katakan Mat Zan begitu kerana yang aku kenal dia, memang dia ini berdedikasi. So minus him)

Aku jadi penat mengenang perangai mereka begini. Aku jadi penat dengan usaha Pegawai FAM yang tak kemana. Kesudahannya aku jadi menyampah dengan segalanya bersangkutan mereka.

Mana silapnya. Anak didik yang tak berdisiplin? Pegawai yang hilang arah atau mungkin akal? Aku percaya jika kita memanggil Scolari pun dengan adanya campur tangan FAM. Pasukan Malaysia tetap macam itu. Kecuali jika FAM melepaskan segalanya kepada kepakaran mereka. Biar jurulatih itu sendiri cari Physical Trainer dia sendiri, biar dia cari Physio dia sendiri, biar dia cari dietician dia sendiri. Jangan ada campur tangan FAM. Apa yang FAM boleh buat propose ajer nama kepada Jurulatih Bagus itu. Duduk belajar pandai pandai dan dengar kata pendapat orang.

Berbalik ke perlawanan malam tadi. MyTeam seharusnya berbangga dengan pencapaian mereka. Walau orang kata passing hancur, walau orang kata permainan tak compose, walau orang kata masih mentah untuk ditembungkan dengan pasukan kebangsaan, yang mengata itu la yang sepatutnya mengukur badan sendiri dulu. Jika dengan pasukan yang serba serbi ini mempunyai cela boleh memberikan tentangan kepada pasukan Malaysia, aku tidak hairan jika Tahun depan kita kalah dengan Maldives. Kita dah pernah kalah dengan Vietnam yang baru bangkit dari perang, dengan Laos yang masih mundur dan dengan Lebonan yang masih dalam kancah perang. Dengan segala kelebihan, kita masih tak dapat menterjemahkan dalam bentuk kemenangan, kita masih di rank yang sama dan semakin teruk saban hari.

Kepada FAM. Ukur baju di rumah dulu sebelum pergi ke kedai kain kelak silap kita yang malu. Dengan kata lain, biar kalah dulu dengan amatur dalam negara sebelum kalah di luar negara. Lagi malu dan point untuk ranking dunia pun menurun.

Untuk malam tadi

Arun @ Robinho Man of the Match tapi aku lebih suka dengan Fairuz. Untuk pasukan negeri atau kelab Lihat Fairuz, Arun, Hasmizam, Azmi, Jeremy dan Amir untuk pasukan anda. They deserve a place in a league squad

Minggu yang melemaskan - minggu lepas

Betul betul sibuk aku sepanjang minggu lepas. Aku kena preparekan satu slide presentation untuk bos aku dan aku sendiri kena buat presentation untuk tutup kes problem yang telah lama kami dapat simpulkan.

2 presentation yang sangat meletihkan otak. Alhamdulillah kedua dua presentation itu telah berjaya menutup kes dalam minit mesyuarat yang selalu merimaskan bos aku dan kami di dalam unit kami. Paling menggembirakan kami satu kes yang menuntut untuk membetulkan keadaan tempat kerja dengan menggunakan alat surveillance control and data acquisation (scada) telah berjaya menghapuskan keraguan tatacara proses berhubung dengan perseketiran kelembapan di tempat kerja. Masalah yang telah dibahaskan atau digaduhkan dari 1997 lagi. Seperti melontar sebiji batu kena kepada 2 burung.

Tapi sebenarnya bukanlah nak disengajakan. Cuma dalam masa pengumpulan maklumat kami perhatikan dapat membuat kesimpulan yang kedua duanya itu ada bersangkut rapat dan kedua duanya boleh diselasaikan sekali. Dan yang paling menggembirakan aku, kerja ini sepatutnya dilakukan oleh unit M&E tetapi dapat disudahi oleh kami dari unit C&G. Puas bila dapat ucapan terima kasih dari top management dan bos. Heiiiiiii ....... dalam perkara seperti ini, dapat ucapan sedemikian pun dah cukup bagus pasal depa nih kedekut nak keluarkan ayat Terima Kasih apatah lagi sambil pat shoulder.

Cukupla pasal kerja. 2 ~ 3 hari ini aku nak ringankan otak sat. Sementelah bos aku cuti hari ini, pressure pun kurang sket boleh la aku mengupdatekan blog aku sket sket. Rasanya total minute aku spend kat tag joe pun dalam 12 minit kot sepanjang minggu lepas. That was record low. Hari ini aku tak tau la sampai berapa lama aku akan lepak kat tag joe. Kerja ada juga nak kena settlekan cuma yang leganya bos aku tak ada la mengomel kat aku bila nak buat itu bila nak buat ini. Tak la berselirat dalam kepala otak aku nih nak rancang kerja. Aku siapkan la aku punya hal dulu. Selalunya tengah aku dok siapkan kerja aku biasanya bos aku mula la tanya kerja orang lain kat aku. Memang la aku ketua unit C&G tapi engineer2 lain pun tahu juga buat kerja depa tuh. Sepatutnya tak perlu la nak tanyakan update kat aku tiap tiap 15 minit. Fening aku. Action items ada dalam white board dan selalu dibincangkan masa de-briefing setiap petang. Tahu la kami laksanakan tugas. Tapi ya lakan dah tugas bos nak pastikan semua keje mengikut apa yang engineer sendiri tetapkan, kena la layan .............. kalau tak nanti hujung tahun appraisal teruk hahahahahahaha....... kena pulak charge insubordination pulak nanti kalau aku tak ikut cakap dia. Naya ajer.

Cukupla cite pasal kerja. Entry yang selepas ini aku nak cite pulak pendapat aku pasal MyTeam vs Malaysia. Tapi apa apa hal aku nak intai technician aku buat keje ke mengular. Nanti aku sambung balik

Game Tennis

Sabtu yang lepas telah diadakan pertandingan tenis tertutup dalam jabatan kami ini. Perlawanan ini lebih kepada persedian untuk menghadapi Sukan Syarikat yang dijangka bermula pada Bulan Jun nanti.

Pasukan terdiri dari 10 pasukan dengan 5 pasukan setiap kumpulan. Permainan akan dijalankan secara round robin dengan johan dan naib johan kumpulan pergi ke peringkat separuh akhir.


Pemain juga dikehendaki campur dengan 10 orang yang dikenali bagus main akan mengundi pasangannya yang tak bagus main. Baru la fair kononnya. Pasukan kami memang sentiasa johan dalam pertandingan syarikat kami dan kami hantar 4 wakil ke sukan antara agensi Kementerian Sains. Cuma tahun lepas ajer kami tak dapat memenangi apa apa pasal ada beberapa pemain tak dapat turun pada saat saat akhir kerana terpaksa troubleshoot egp dan process problem. Tak dapat guna pemain gantian pasal nama dah submit sebelum game bermula dan dapat bantahan dari pihak lawan. Sebenarnya depa gerun jumpa dengan pasukan kami,

Aku telah diundi bersama seorang perempuan. Okay la pasal dia nih pun reserve main mix double utk sukan antara jabatan dalam syarikat kami. Tetapi bila mengenangkan ada 2 lagi kumpulan yang pemain kurang-bagusnya itu sebenarnya main lebih baik dari partner aku, aku terus gabra sat. Ye la walaupun main nak enjoy tapi aku nak juga jaga aku punya rank dalam team aku. Dan menjadikan aku lebih panik nih ada dua orang engineer masuk yang kononnya main tak bagus rupanya main bagus macam kita orang yang dah biasa main. Alasannya dia orang kata main tak bagus pasal dia dah dengar banyak pasal team kita orang nih tiap tiap tahun juara (kecuali tahun lepas) jadi dia ingat kami main bagus macam pro atau paling kurang pun state player. Itu yang dia rasa rendah diri sket tuh dan terus mengaku tak pandai main.

Kami teruskan main dan akhirnya seperti yang dijangka atas kertas memang memihak kepada empat team yang dirasakan menang sebelum permainan bermula. Aku dapat juga masuk ke separuh akhir walaupun ankle aku rasa sakit akibat tackle yang aku terima main bola sebulan yang lepas.

Boleh kata dalam game ini untuk sampai ke separuh akhir memang aku la yang kena bekerja keras. Partner, aku suruh jaga kat depan net untuk wipe terus bola kat depan. Aku cover belakang untuk return atau stroke. Strategy menjadi la untuk round robin tapi bukan untuk separuh akhir. Pasal depa depa semua nih pun memang rank bagus lagi dari aku memang wajar la depa menang. Aku tetap puas hati pasal matlamat pun nak masuk separuh akhir.

Main bermula dari 8.30am dan habis jam pukul 3.30pm. Penat gila aku main hari tuh. Arc dengan budak budak panggil ke swimming pool pun aku cakap tak larat dah nak pegi kesitu walaupun tak jauh dari tempat keje aku. Aku nak balik, mandi dan nak tidur. Penat wehhh

Nak simpan tenaga untuk lawan bola pulak hari Ahad dgn Team dari MMU. Puas hati aku main dengan Yuran RM10 Ringgit aku dapat bersukan, dapat Baju T-Shirt dan dapat payung hadiah masuk ke separuh akhir.

Paling aku suka untuk tenis semalam ajer aku dapat bakar kalori sekurang kurangnya 1200 kalori. Paling Arc terkejut tengok muka aku kena bakar dengan matahari, merah hitam muka dengan lengan aku. Tapi aku puas................

Mad Sale atau Orang Gila nak beli sale

Semalam Arc cuti. MC kononnya. Okayla kot kalau nak bercuti rehat. Memang dia susah nak dapat cuti. Al maklum kerja dalam operasi syarikat memang payah nak cuti. Kena pulak inquiry masuk banyak memang dia sentiasa serba salah nak ambil cuti. Penyudahnya MC. Senang, bos pun takkan tanya banyak.

Tapi tak tahu la aku dia punya MC memang sajer ajer dia rancang atau pun pasal sale kat Jusco Puchong tuh pun aku tak sure.

Petang Dia talipon aku, kata dia akan ke Jusco dengan adik dia. kemudian suruh aku tunggu kat opis bila abis keje pasal dia nak berbelanja dapur dengan aku samada kat Giant ataupun Tesco.

Petang tuh tunggu punya tunggu tak juga sampai dan tak lama lepas pukul 6.30pm baru Arc talipon minta aku pulak ke Jusco untuk ambil dia disana. Cehh ........ dah tahu macam tuh minta la aku terus kesana tak payah la aku tunggu lama lama kat court tennis tempat aku keje tuh.

Aku start kete terus ke Jusco Puchong. Fuh jammed jalan tuh. Dari Persimpangan Puchong dgn Highway Bukit Jalil ke Jusco tuh pun dah ambik masa dekat 20minit. Polis berkawal tapi kalau dah ramai umat macam tuh, memang tengok ajer la.

Dah sampai Jusco, ada hal lagi dengan parking. Menyampah betul aku kalau sale macam ini. Dekat lima minit juga aku mencari parking. Susah sangat aku park kete aku kat trolley bay. Pasall la ko Jusco. Tapi aku tengok kosong ajer bay tuh, mungkin sebat tak cukup trolley kut pasal umat yg gila shopping nih 10 kali lebih dari jumlah trolley yg dia ada.

Sale nih sebenarnya untuk Ahli ahli Jusco ajer tapi perghhhhhh ramainya. Terkenang aku masa sale IKEA dulu masa mula nak pindah dari One Utama ke Mutiara Damansara. Aku dengan Arc siap ambil cuti lagi nak pegi ke sale tuh. Bukan senang IKEA nak buat sale.

Ramai juga rakan rakan aku pun cuti sama pasal nak berlari ke IKEA. Ada seorang kawan aku tuh kata keje gila ajer pegi sale macam itu. Dia tak tahu aku sendiri pun pegi gak. Dia kata keje gila, Abis tuh dah nama pun mad sale. hahahahahahaha. Berjam jam wo que nak bayar. Hampeh betul aku rasa masa tuh. Pakkla la sale tuh sampai 70%, tuh yg aku tahan tunggu tuh.

Berbalik pada Sale Jusco tuh, bila dah sampai pergh, segala macam bau ada. Dah orang gila punya ramai, air-cond yang sejuk tuh pun tak terasa sejuk. Hangat sikit aku rasa temperature dia sama hangat dengan aku nak mencelah celah orang nak mencari Arc.

Aku tak adala plan nak beli apa apa pasal aku dah beli dah sale yang lepas. Tapi Arc la nak mencari yang dalam dalam hehehehehe. Biasanya yang dalam dalam tuh Harga mencecah RM 80 ringgit dah jadi berbelas ringgit. Tuh yang dia bersemangat pergi tuh. Ya la kan barang yang dalam dalam tuh beli mahal mahal pun benda kecik ajer tu yang rasa tak patut dengan harganya tuh. Tapi pasal dah jadi berbelas ringgit, sanggup dia mengharungi umat umat yang berebut rebut tuh.

Time dia sibuk sibuk membeli yang dalam dalam tuh aku sibukkan diri aku kat bahagian Audio Visual. Tak kan la aku nak lepak dekat umat umat yang sibuk cari yang dalam dalam tuh. Aku pulak yang termalu karang bila dia orang sembang sembang ker acu acu ker kat area situ. Maklum la testing room penuh. hehehehehe.

Ada juga la beli barang barang yang lain tapi tempat yang paling penuh sesak memang boleh nampak la. Pertamanya kat bahagian lingerie, Keduanya kat bahagian baju wanita, Ketiganya kat bahagian Kasut (Wanita), Keempatnya kat Bahagian baju lelaki,
Kelimanya kat bahagian Bag bag tangan wanita dan selebihnya lebih kurang sama ajer.

Nampakla sangat memang bab shopping nih memang tarikan untuk perempuan. Tengok dari sale macam ini pun dah jelas dah memang perempuan terror shopping. Macam Tipah tertipu cakap, perempuan beli baju bulan bulan atau paling kurang pun tudung, lelaki baju raya pun boleh skip ke tahun depan hehehehehehehehe.

For ollls ladies I dont mean to insult, cuma nampak dari made sale baru baru ini ajer. Peace ekkks.

How I wish to have more money so that I dont have to wait till sale to get what I want. Kena usaha lebih nih cari income lain nampaknya.

Kisah pegawai KWSP dan aku

Semalam aku bercuti untuk membawa mak aku ke KWSP dan juga pejabat tanah untuk menyelesaikan hal hal yang bersangkutan dengan mak aku sebelum di a pencen 22 May ini.

Mulanya kami ke KWSP Kajang. Untuk mengeluarkan duit KWSP mak aku. Tak banyak pun pasal ada RM100++ ajer. Tapi masih duit juga jadi aku pun bawa mak aku kesana. Musykil gak apasal sket sangat. Rupanya mak aku ambil skim pencen tuh yang ada seciput ajer kat KWSP tuh.

Selesai urusan mak aku aku pun bertanya la dengan pegawai yang bertugas untuk pengeluaran duit sambung belajar aku tuh.

Aku: Kalau ikut borang nih macam saya kena dahulukan duit untuk bayaran yuran ajer. Kalau boleh saya nak KWSP bayarkan terus ajer yuran tuh

Peg KWSP: Adik sertakan borang tawaran kemasukan universiti bersama course fee dan hantarkan kepada kami.

Aku: OK tapi kenapa perlukan salinan SPM pulak.

Peg KWSP: Ohh kita perlukan itu untuk tahu adik layak ke tak?

Aku: Layak untuk apa?

Peg KWSP: Untuk kursus yang adik ambil?

Aku: Kalau dah dapat surat tawaran dari universiti pun nak juga salinan SPM saya?

Peg KWSP: Prosedur adik untuk tahu adik membuat permohonan kali pertama pengeluaran KWSP untuk sambung belajar buat Diploma.

Aku: Tapi saya nak buat Master.

Peg KWSP: Oh ye ke BANG. Kalau macam itu ABANG sertakan salinan ijazah abang.

Dan dan dia terus panggil aku ABANG

Soalnya

Kelihatan muda kah aku hehehehehehehe. Mungkin pasal diet aku hahahahahahahaha

My Opinion on The Last Entry - Facing Death

FACING DEATH - was written by a Malaysian Muslim in July 2005, when he was stricken with terminal cancer. He died on November 27th, 2005. Arwah wants to be known as K.

Mari sama sama kita sedekahkan Al Fatihak kepada Allahyarham K semoga rohnya dilindungi kekuasaan Allah SWT.

Aku rasa entry yg ini memang sangat panjang sampaikan Arc pun tak terlarat untuk baca entry sebegini. Satu kisah sedih yang dialami sebahagian dari masyarakat kita. Satu kisah sedih yang telah ditentukan oleh Allah Azzawajalla.

Memang benar setiap perkara itu telah diputuskan sejak di lohmahfuz lagi. Sebagai seorang muslim kita yakin dengan ketentuan ini.

Cuma apa yang menggusarkan aku adalah keterangan arwah K yang pada aku sama kali bercanggah dengan dengan konsep berusaha yang selama ini aku yakini. Aku yakin memang segala dalam kehidupan ini tertulis di lohmahfuz tetapi itu seharusnya bukan menjadikan ia sebagai satu alasan untuk berterusn berusaha untuk mencapai sesuatu yang kita inginkan atau impikan.

Ia seolah olah menidakkan kekuasaan Allah itu sendiri bagi mereka yang berusaha maka akan ada balasannya. Acap kali kita mendengar " Aku tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang itu jika dia tidak mengubah nasibnya sendiri ". Ayat apa jgn tanya pada aku kerana aku bukan ahli dalam menafsir Al Quran. Tapi inilah satu ayat yang sering dinyatakan dalam kuliah kuliah maghrib diseluruh dunia menggesa kita muslimin dan muslimat untuk berterusan berusaha untuk mengubah nasib kita kearah kehidupan yang lebih baik.

Dalam konteks ini arwah K menerapkan sikap yang harus semua insan dekati ketika menghadapai maut. Ajal dan maut di dalam tangan Allah dan tiada muslimin yang mempertikaikannya. Aku kira seharusnya arwah K tidak seharusnya mengeluarkan ayat yang berusaha itu adalah sia sia dan lebih baik sahaja kita redha dan bertawakal kepada Allah dan dengan demikian kita tak akan gelisah menghadapai kematian.

Aku percaya segalanya perlu diusahakan dahulu dan yakin setiap usaha itu ada balasannya. Jika kita fikir apa yang kita usahakan itu tidak dekat dengan apa yang kita kehendakai, muhasabah diri kita dulu. Aku yakin ada yang tidak kena dengan diri kita. Setelah kita berusaha barula kita bertawakal dengan apa yang terjadi dengan kita dan redha dengan apa yang diputuskan oleh Allah SWT.

Aku punya rakan yang bapanya telah di diagnos mengidap kanser usus. Pernah dibuang ususnya sepanjang 2 kaki. Selepas 2 tahun kemudian, doktor memeriksa semula dan kansernya itu telah merebak ke usus yang lain dan doktor menasihatkannya untuk membuang 3 kaki usus lagi. Aku mencadangkan satu alternatif kepada kawan aku menerusi testomoni dari orang lain. Duit bukan penghalang jadi kawan aku rekomenkan kepada ayahnya dan alhamdulillah sehingga sekarang usus 3 kaki yang sepatutnya dibuang telah baik seperti usus orang yang sihat.

Lihatla bagaimana dia berusaha, dari makan ubat serta antibiotik sehinggalah pernah dibuang ususnya 2 kaki, ayah kawan aku ini masih berterusan berusaha untuk menjadikan ususnya sihat. Dengan usaha beliau, dia telah berjaya menyelamatkan ususnya dibuang 3 kaki untuk kedua kalinya. Inilah balasan yang Allah janjikan jika seseorang itu berusaha.

Teruskan lah berusaha kerana usaha itu akan dibayar. Jika usaha itu tidak kesampaian, periksa diri kita sendiri kenapa ia gagal kerana Allah selalu berkehendakkan manusia itu sentiasa berjaya.

Lord Budak: Aku selalu usahakan agar tangan ini sampai ke mulut aku untuk suapkan makanan supaya aku kenyang. Aku tidak akan kenyang jika tangan menggosok perut sambil melihat makanan dimeja makan.

Facing Death

Something that I really want to discuss with friends

Lord Budak


FACING DEATH
A testimony of a Muslim Stricken with Metastasis Cancer
For Free Distribution

(The author passed away peacefully at the age of 39 in his Taman Permata home on the 27th. November 2005due to terminal cancer. He is survived by his wife, a young son and two younger daughters. He left behind a clear request to distribute this article only after his death. Pray that Allah give His Mercy to his soul and reward him with Jannah. Ameen) – his elder brother


Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim

FACING DEATH

1. INTRODUCTION

Assalamu'alaikum Brothers and Sisters in Islam.

First of all, please allow me to identify myself on as K. My main reason to remain anonymous is because I want the readers to concentrate more on the content of this article rather than to concentrate on the character of the author, I.e. Me. This is because this article contains things that I learned from personal experience throughout my ordeal in facing death, which I feel is now my obligation to share with my Muslim Brothers and Sisters.

At the same time, however, I know I am far from being a perfect Muslim, and I am still unsure of the state I would be in when my Creator finally calls me. I am still worried whether I would really pass the test I.e. The pain, the agony, especially during Sakaratul Maut. Therefore, I do not want the state of my death to affect the credibility of the knowledge that I want to share with you in this article.

As the main purpose of this article is to share my knowledge and experience, you may distribute this freely to others. Those who know me, if required you can mention verbally about the author, but no name please. The same applies to those who receive the information. Like I said earlier, it is not important to know who the author was. What is more important to ponder the information I am sharing with you in this article.

Last but not least, the views expressed in this article are solely my opinions. This means that I could be right and I could also be wrong. If you have doubts on some of my views, by all means consult the experts, the Islamic Scholars in particular.

If I am proven wrong, take the article from the Islamic Scholars and please ignore mine. What I am doing here is just sharing with my fellow Brothers and Sisters in Islam what I have learnt to the best of my knowledge, hoping that we could all learn something from it.

1.1 A Brief History of My Illness

In the fourth quarter of year 2002, I was diagnosed with Choroidal Metanoma, a cancer of the choroids behind the retina in my right eye. By the time it was correctly diagnosed, the cancer had already grown to a considerable size where it was no longer possible to save the vision through an operation, although there was still a chance to save the eyeball.

But such an operation would be very costly, as it could only be performed in a foreign country. Furthermore, there would be costs for the subsequent treatments (radiation therapy), etc; and yet the risk of "recurrence" would still be very high, plus some other possible complications. A better solution as suggested by the local experts was "Enucleation", I.e. To remove the right eyeball completely.

It was a tough decision to allow the doctors to enucleate my right eyeball. But Alhamdulillah, after a lot of prayers and putting a lot of thoughts to it, I decided to have it done. To cut the story short, Allah s.w.t. gave me another one and a half months before the operation could take place; at first because of my request to spare me from the operation for another two weeks. Subsequently the operation had to be further postponed due to the unavailability of the correct size of the artificial eye that needed to be placed in my right eye's orbit.

The one and a half months is a period that will be referred in this article, so please allow me to term it as Grace Period 1.

The enucleation and the artificial eye implant took place in November 2002, during the month of Ramadhan. I had to miss a few days of fasting, but I could no longer postpone the operation due to the high risk of it spreading to other parts of the body. Alhamdulillah, the operation went well, and Alhamdulillah, Allah made me recover from the operation fairly quickly, making it possible for me to carry on with my fasting for the remaining days.

The histopathology report that came later confirmed that the cancer was confined to the eyeball and there was still a considerably good margin separating the cancer cells from the eyeball's main blood vessels, Alhamdulillah.

Having done the enucleation was not the end of the story. I became aware by reading articles from the internet and also from doctors, that I was still at risk of experiencing "recurrence" or worse, the fatal metastasis cancer (cancer that spreads to other parts of the body). As for metastasis cancer, the most common part that would be affected due to choroidal melanoma is the liver.

Therefore I always had to go for medical checkups every 6 months, to do a CT Scan of the brain and orbit, and an ultrasound of the liver. All praise is due to Allah s.w.t., I lived a normal life from the moment I recovered from the enucleation in November 2002 until the last quarter of year of 2004.For easy reference later in this article, I term this period as Grace Period 2.

In the middle of year 2004, I started sensing some changes in me. The changes were in terms of my energy levels; I started to feel very tired at the end of the day. There were times when I just felt a bit tired all of a sudden, but after a while I felt ok again. I also discovered I had to take a long time to recover from a simple flu, instead of my normal 2 hours (using panadol + sleeping under a blanket), I now took 2 days to recover.

I then began to realize that something was not very right with me. It could be either my fitness level had dropped due to the lack of exercise (unlike before the enucleation operation), or because of the possible metastasis cancer mentioned before. Anyway, my next scheduled CT Scan and Ultrasound was just around the corner, i.e. in early August, which would be a good opportunity to check the cause of the problem.

The result of the ultrasound scan confirmed that I had Multiple Liver Metastasis. It was indeed a heavy blow to me, previously I was losing my eye and now I was going to lose my life. I was told that if not treated, I might only have 6 months or so to live. To make things worse, the Head of Oncology Department confirmed that at present, metastasis cancer of the liver due to choroidal melanoma has very limited solutions. And all these solutions have low percentage rate of success. At best even if successful, the solution would only help to prolong life for a few more months or so. Anyhow, he still suggested that I go for the proposed treatments, and I did.

So that is the condition I am in today at this point of writing. Still struggling with the cancer. I have gone for most of the proposed treatments (chemotherapy, chemo embolization, etc.) and Alhamdulillah, I am still alive at this point of time. It has been more than 11 months since I was first diagnosed with the metastasis cancer, and I am referring to this period asGrace Period 3.

But from the medical reports, I have the feeling that this period will not be long, because the metastasis cancers are still growing and I am beginning to feel and experience the effects. It may just be a matter of time now, before Allah s.w.t. decide to end my life or to cure me through His miracles.

The above is a brief history of my illness, which I think is important to know before you will be able to understand the remaining content of my article.

[For more information about Choroidal Melanoma and Metastasis Cancer, just do a google search, insyaAllah you will find lots of information about it. One example is the site below:
http://www.eyecancer.com /MetastaticMelanoma/MetMel.html]


2. The Principle Attitude to be adopted

It is not easy to list down in the right chronology the things that I learned throughout my ordeal, as they involved various time spans. So I will try my best to arrange them according to what I think is best. Honestly, I do not have much time to think about the strategy to write this article. So please forgive me for all shortcomings.

I will start with what I term as "The Attitude" to be adopted when facing a situation like mine. This is important as it will determine your next course of actions.

"Have a Strong Will to Fight it!"

When I was told that I had choroidal melanoma in my right eye, and the best solution was to remove the eyeball completely (enucleation), I was really in total state of confusion. This was because while all the doctors advised me to go for the enucleation immediately, my close relatives and friends said that there existed alternative medications that could help remove or reduce the tumor size, citing several personally known cases, and advising me that I should give some time to try them out.

But everyone of them shared one particular common principle, which was that "You must have a strong will to fight this cancer". In other words, I should do whatever necessary to fight the cancer not only from the physical treatment point of view (surgery, chemotherapy, alternative medications and supplements, etc.), but also from the emotional, mental and spiritual point of view (positive thinking, meditation, constant prayers and supplications to Allah s.w.t. for recovery, constantly reciting certain verses of the Quran and some shalawat related to Asy-Syifa', etc.).

I subscribe to this idea to "fight this cancer from all aspects mentioned above". I used my granted Grace Period 1 from Allah s.w.t. to try all other kinds of alternative treatments that I could find. I spent a lot of money going from one place to another for treatments, etc., hoping that the cancer could be reduced or at least controlled from further growth.

I also used this same period to "fight the cancer" from the spiritual, emotional and mental point of view by increasing my daily Quranic readings and night prayers, crying in front of Allah s.w.t. while asking for His mercy for my recovery, constantly reciting the recommended Quranic verses and shalawat, meditation, and so many others.

Nevertheless despite all these efforts, I could see that the cancer was still growing (remember, the cancer was in my eye, so I could see the spot that was affecting my vision becoming larger and larger). At the time when the artificial eye was available (end of Grace Period 1), I could see that there was no improvement, which meant that I had no more reasons to ask for further postponement.

It was also becoming too risky, i.e. the gap was becoming narrower between the cancer spot and the main inlet/outlet for the eye, where the main blood vessels are, i.e. the blind spot. So I decided to proceed with enucleation, convincing myself that this was what Allah had wanted. I forced myself to "redha" (true acceptance) with Allah's decision, as that was the only choice I had in order to overcome my frustration.

As you know, more than one and a half years later I got the news that I have metastasis cancer. It was a big blow to me when I received the news. Before this I was about to lose my eye, and now I am about to lose my life.

I spent a considerable amount of time pondering about all these things that I had gone through and about to go through. I also prayed to Allah s.w.t. for His guidance, as I was not sure what was going to happen to me and what I was supposed to do. I already had the experience fighting the eye cancer before in which I failed and had caused me a little bit of depression. So I was not sure now if I really could go through it all over again fighting even more severely for something which was more crucial – my life.

But Alhamdulillah, Allah s.w.t. then helped me "see things" I had never "seen" before. I suddenly realized that my ordeal while facing the eye cancer problems actually contained lessons for me to face my second ordeal, the possibility of losing my life. The lessons are:

? The fact that I could not save my eye despite all the efforts I made physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, reminds me that none of my body parts actually belong to me. They are merely "lent" to me by Allah s.w.t. Before this, I only understood this fact "theoretically", now I really know it for sure.

? When Allah s.w.t. had willed to take away my eye, nothing could stop this decision. So what makes me think now that I can stop Allah s.w.t. if He decides to take away my life?

? Throughout Grace Period 1, I never knew what Allah s.w.t's final decision would be for my eye until I discovered that it was too risky to postpone the enucleation. So, was adopting the "fighting the cancer" attitude, especially from spiritual point of view, really worth it? What I discovered was that I was still having some feelings of disappointment at times, as if Allah s.w.t did not answer my prayers despite all the spiritual efforts I made. These were the whispers of Syaitan, who continuously try to divert mankind away from Allah s.w.t.

All the above now contribute to a very important lesson in my life, which is as follows:

The advise to "Have a strong will to fight cancer from all aspects of life (physical, emotional, mental and spiritual)" could actually be a very dangerous attitude for a Muslim to adopt. I was lucky I had that first experience, and the thing I was fighting for was only to save my eye. But what if at that time, I was actually fighting for my life? What if while I was fighting for my life suddenly I discovered that the Angel of death was now in front of me about to take my life away?

I could have died while being displeased with Allah s.w.t's decision to take away my life; because I had made a lot of efforts, prayers and supplications to Him but yet it would seem then as though He had not answered any of my prayers (na'udzubillah). Had I died in this situation, i.e. with the feeling of displeasure to Allah s.w.t. do you think Allah s.w.t. would still be pleased with me? I don't think so.

I therefore realized that the attitude to "Have a strong will to fight cancer from all aspects of life (physical, emotional, mental and spiritual)" is definitely a wrong and dangerous attitude for me to adopt, especially now when I am about to lose my life due to this metastasis cancer.

So What Attitude to Adopt?

My ordeal fighting the eye cancer was a very important lesson for me. I know for sure that "having a strong will to fight" is a very wrong thing to do. Why fight for something when I am not sure what the outcome would be? Especially after knowing that Allah s.w.t. has already decreed for each one of us how long we shall live in this world, and that none can stop it when the time comes.

"But to no soul will Allah grant respite when the time appointed (for it) has come; and Allah is well-acquainted with (all) that ye do".
(Al-Munaafiqun: 11)

"Wherever ye are, death will find you out, even if ye are in towers built up strong and high!.."
(An-Nisaa': 78)

"We have decreed Death to be your common lot, and We are not to be frustrated."
(Al- Waqia'ah: 60)

"He is the Irresistible, (watching) from above over His worshippers, and He sets guardians over you. At length, when death approaches one of you, Our angels take his soul, and they never fail in their duty."
(Al-An'am: 61)

The above are just four out of so many Quranic verses talking about Life and Death, all reminding us of whom we are, nothing but weak human beings who live in this world at the mercy of Allah s.w.t. So to put up a strong fight for my life while not knowing what Allah s.w.t. has decided for me (as it is totally beyond my knowledge), is definitely not the right thing to do. Furthermore, as I have discussed previously, this attitude could be very dangerous as I may die while being displeased with Allah s.w.t's decision.

The next obvious question is "What then should be my correct attitude in facing this possibility of losing my life?". The answer lies in the Quran in the following verse:

"To Allah do belong the unseen (secrets) of the heavens and the earth, and to Him goeth back every affair (for decision):then worship Him, and put thy trust in Him: and thy Lord is not unmindful of aught that ye do.
(Hud: 123)

The above verse clearly indicates that we have no knowledge of the Unseen (including the time of our deaths) as they belong to Allah s.w.t. alone, and that all affairs are for him to decide. We are asked to put our trust (tawakkal) in Him alone. Allah s.w.t. also said in the Quran:

"Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere. Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah we belong, and to Him is our return". They are those on whom (descend) blessings from their Lord, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.
(Al-Baqarah: 155-157)

Based on these facts, I therefore have chosen to let Allah s.w.t. decide for me, whether to heal me or to take away my life, as I realized that it is not for me to decide on this unseen thing.

My supplication to Allah s.w.t. have also changed. Previously when I was about to lose my eye, I did a lot of prayers and supplications to Allah s.w.t. asking Him for my recovery. But this time, all I ask from Allah s.w.t. is whatever His decision will be, let it be the best for me; i.e. if He decides to heal me, make me a better person and a very obedient servant of His; if on the other hand He decides to take away my life, I beg Him to take me away during the time He is truly pleased with me and to bless me with His forgiveness and mercy. I also asked Allah s.w.t. to make me among "those who patiently persevere", as I do not know how much pain and agony I will have to face later on in the future. That is all I ask from Him, and I put all my trust in Him as is commanded by Him in the above verse.

This is the concept of "Redha" (true acceptance) of what Allah s.w.t. has decreed upon us, and "Tawakkal" i.e. putting all trust to Allah s.w.t. It is not something that can be easily achieved without the help from Allah s.w.t. Therefore, you will have to continuously ask Allah s.w.t. to help you achieve it. That is what I did, and I discovered Allah s.w.t. is so Merciful and He will help you when you sincerely ask for it. I will talk about this in the next section insyaAllah.

What is more important to tell you at this stage are what I have personally experienced after adopting this "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude in replace of "You must have a strong will to fight the cancer" attitude. The things that I discovered are as follows:

? With the "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude, I discovered that I began to really enjoy doing my prayers, supplications to Allah s.w.t. and all kinds of other ibadah (Solat, Zikrullah, Quranic readings and studies, etc); as I now do all these only with the hope to obtain His blessings and forgiveness and nothing else.

With the "strong will to fight the cancer" attitude, I was having a lot of
conflicts within myself when I performed all the above ibadah, because I was not sure if I was doing them to get Allah s.w.t's blessing and forgiveness or because I was desperate for recovery. Sometimes I felt guilty of being selfish, I felt that I did all these because I was only thinking for myself (i.e. for my recovery), not because of trying to please Allah s.w.t. Honestly, it was really awful to have that kind of feeling while doing your ibadah.

? With the "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude, I really have a very peaceful mind (mentally, emotionally and spiritually). I am not under any kind of pressure at all due to my sickness, in fact I am totally relaxed, alhamdulillah. When I feel sick, I make a lot of Istighfar as I know this is one method for Allah s.w.t. to forgive my sins. When I feel ok, I praise Him as I really feel thankful for His great Mercy towards me.

I think this is the blessing you would get from Allah s.w.t. once you adopt the "Redha and Tawakkal "attitude, as you let Allah s.w.t. decide the best for you, compared to when I was adopting the "strong will to fight the cancer" attitude where I was really under a lot of stress. I guess back then I was really desperate to recover, I believed I could fight the cancer and so I tried my best, I never prepared myself to be on the "losing side", so I was really under pressure to win the battle.

? Having a peaceful mind (mentally, emotionally and spiritually) in itself is a form of healing. Even if it does not help me to survive the cancer physically, it is already helping me to face it mentally, emotionally and spiritually, which is more important.

It is important to note that when I said that I began adopting the "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude, I did not mean I also started refusing to go for any kind of treatment. The "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude that I adopt is for my mental, emotional and spiritual point of view only. Physically, I still go for recommended treatments suggested by the medical doctors and complimentary medical practitioners, as long as the recommended treatment is not against Islamic teachings (of course I also have other criteria before I go for my treatment, but they are my personal preferences, e.g. it must not be very expensive as I prefer to save the money for my children).

But when I go for any of these treatments, I never put on any hope on them because I have put my hope and trust only to Allah s.w.t. Whether or not I will be healed, it is up to Allah s.w.t. to decide. I therefore do not have any stress about the possible failure as a result of the treatment.

One might ask why then do I still go for treatment if I have put my trust and hope only to Allah s.w.t.? The answer is because we never know what lies ahead of us, i.e. in my case, whether Allah s.w.t. will heal me or take away my life. But we do know that most of the times Allah's help come via the people around you, as Allah s.w.t. is in control of everything in this world.

I therefore should not refuse any help offered by anybody especially when they are sincere to help and the proposed treatment does not go against the criteria I mentioned earlier. From my own experience, if the proposed treatment works (even if it only reduces the pain) then there is more reason for me to thank Allah s.w.t.; and if it doesn't work, then there is always a lesson to learn from it.

To summarise this lesson, ""Redha and Tawakkal" is a much better attitude to adopt as it brings you so much greater benefits from all aspects of life (Physical, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual)

2.3 How to Achieve the "Redha and Tawakkal"
Attitude?

I have mentioned earlier that the "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude is not something easily achieved without the help of Allah s.w.t. We have to continuously ask Allah s.w.t. to help us on this matter. Even for me at this stage, I still think I have a long way to go to make sure that I can maintain the "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude. This is because I do not know what lies in front of me, for example, in terms of the agony and pain that I would probably face later. Every time something 'bad' happens to someone (pain, sickness, bad news, etc.), that is a test from Allah s.w.t. But it could be so bad that one might lose his/her patience (na'uzubillah). This is what I am worried about, therefore I must continuously ask Allah s.w.t. all the time to help me to maintain this attitude.

And from my experience, yes Allah s.w.t. will answer your prayer once you put your full trust in Him alone. And sometimes the answer came in a manner which you did not expect.

For example, after I was diagnosed with metastasis cancer, and was told that I probably have 6 months or so to live, I was really upset. A few days later I was arranged to meet a Professor who was also the Head of Oncology Department of a local hospital. He told me further bad news, where he honestly said to me "You have of the three cancers that I hate to treat, because there is really no cure for it". He then explained to me the types of available treatments and the success rate of each, which definitely would be very depressing for anyone in my position.

But Alhamdulillah, before I met the Professor, I had already decided to adopt the "Redha and Tawakkal" attitude and started to ask Allah s.w.t. to help me on this matter. Allah s.w.t's help came in the manner I least expected, as He made me "see" more things I had never "seen" before. I suddenly realized that the 'bad news' where I have only about 6 months or so to live was actually not a bad news at all, but a merciful message from Allah s.w.t. telling me to get ready for a possible death.

So many other people have died from sudden deaths either by accidents or from natural disasters (earthquakes, tsunamis, etc) and perhaps many of them were not prepared for their deaths at all. But I am actually given early warnings about how my life could possibly end. I will be the most stupid person on earth if I do not heed these early warnings. Realizing this, I became no longer upset with the news.

The news that I have "one of the three cancers" the Professor hates to treat "because there is really no cure" was also another blessing from Allah s.w.t. For many people, they would have probably cried "O God, why did you give me one of these three cancers? Why not a different cancer where I would have a better chance of survival?". I would probably have cried the same thing if Allah s.w.t. did not help me "see" things differently.

Instead, when I received the news from the Professor, I said to myself "Alhamdulillah". Why? Allah s.w.t. has actually answered my prayers. He forced me not to put any hope in any medication because as the professor had said, there is really no cure for it. So I have no choice but to really accept the fact (Redha) and rely on Allah s.w.t. (Tawakkal). That is why whenever I go for any treatment, I am never under any mental or emotional pressure because I no longer put any hope at all on these treatments, but I let Allah s.w.t. decide what the outcome will be. Like I said before, I just pray that whatever Allah s.w.t's decision is for me, let it be the best for
me in this world and hereafter.

Allah s.w.t's help also come in other forms, such as the knowledge you gain from Islamic books you read and from Islamic lectures and courses you attend. I find it sometimes amazing how Allah s.w.t. plan things for me, like when all of sudden the lecturer would touch on issues like "Redha", "Tawakkal", "death" or "Sickness" (which is so informative and beneficial for me), while the main topic of the lecture was not really meant to discuss any of these issues. These sorts of things happen so many times with many different lecturers discussing different topics.

Berat Badan Siri *1

Satu bulan lewat masa. Aku sendiri tidak percaya satu bulan ini aku tahan dengan dugaan sekeliling aku. Apa yang aku tahu jika aku gigih aku pasti aku akan berjaya.

Satu bulan dulu, aku penat, aku semput, aku lembik dan aku mengah bila berjalan disekeling kompaun aku bekerja. Berat badan aku mencecah 92kg, BMI aku 34. Aku Obese. Kalau pergi timbang badan yang mesinnya boleh bersuara, nanti mesin berkata; ANDA SEBENARNYA GEMUKKKKKKK. Pada awalnya aku tak kisah dengan sindiran mesin ini, tetapi lama kelamaan ia seakan mengingatkan aku untuk merancang untuk hidup tidak sihat.

Itu bukan mahu aku. Aku ingin hidup sihat. Aku ingin hidup lama melihat anak anak aku berjaya. Aku tahu ajal ditangan Allah tapi aku tak mahu ini menjadikan aku alasan untuk tidak mengubah cara hidup aku. Aku mahu hidup sihat dan kuat fizikal.

2 minggu lepas aku berjaya mengurangkan berat badan aku ke 87kg, BMI aku 32. Aku tahu aku boleh lakukan. Aku tekad aku akan turunkan berat badan aku. Aku rancang pemakanan aku. Aku lawan usikan isteri aku. Aku tolak godaan makanan kepada aku.

Hari ini berat badan aku 85kg dan BMI aku 31. Sudah hampir masuki sempadan dari Obisiti kepada Gemuk. Aku target untuk merapatkan ke BMI 30, paras par antara Gemuk dan Obisiti. Aku akan gembira jika aku dapat merapati BMI ini pada hujung bulan ini. Untuk itu aku telah tetapkan hati untuk mendapatkan berat badan aku sekitar 82kg~83kg.

Aku masih mencari rentak, aku mencari kaedah dan aku masih belajar cara yang hebat untuk hidup gaya sihat. Aku tak akan berhenti ....................

Petikan dari Reader's Digest

Top 10 Nutrition and Fitness Tips


1. Get real and be specific. Write down three or four realistic goals that you can stick to. For example, "I will try to lose one pound of body fat every week. I will walk for 30 minutes minimum five days a week." Avoid fantasy-land goals that will only frustrate you.

2. Get prepared. Throw away all the junk, the processed, and the "bingeable" foods now and replace them with fresh, whole foods like lots of water and veggies. Buy a new pair of walking shoes and find some clothes in your closet you feel comfortable to walk in. During a lifestyle change, if you fail to plan, then you plan to fail!

3. Get support. Whether it's your best friend, spouse, or pet, it helps to have some nonjudgmental and nurturing support when trying to lose weight, especially during trying times.

4. Make daily notes. Research has shown that keeping track of your daily exercise and food intake in a journal or notebook will increase the likelihood of success. Keep it simple, or if you're inspired, write a novel! The key is to hold yourself accountable.

5. Create a food-free reward system. How about a new workout outfit, pair of jeans, shoes -- or what the heck, even a spa treatment, shopping spree, or weekend getaway? You deserve this kind of treatment when you reach your goals.

6. Buy a pedometer. A pedometer keeps track of how many steps you take daily. Wear it every day, around home, work, and while exercising. Your National Body Challenge goal is to increase your steps by 10,000 or more daily! Remember this: You'll burn roughly 100 to 125 calories by taking 2,500 steps (about one mile). The goal during the challenge is to burn 300 extra calories and to eat roughly 200 calories less in a day. This 500-calorie deficit is equivalent to one pound of body fat per week and a healthy boost to your self-esteem.

7. Don't skip breakfast. Research shows that the most successful "losers" never skip it. Try to keep it balanced with some protein, a healthy carb, and a small amount of fat. Here are some examples: an egg-white omelet with fresh berries and a piece of whole-wheat toast, or a skim milk shake with fruit and yogurt.

8. Nix the late-night eating. If you eat a lot of excess calories after 8 p.m., you wear them the next morning. Put a stop to this by making sure you have a healthy dinner consisting of lean protein, veggies, and fruit.

9. Eliminate processed sugars. Processed sugars are carbs that have been stripped of their valuable nutrients. How can you identify these sugars? They are all white: table sugar, pasta, rice, and bread, and they're nothing but trouble, since they kick up your appetite for more of the same.

10. Have a mid-afternoon snack. This will curb your appetite and provide fuel for your after-work walk or workout at the gym. Some great snack ideas include: reduced-fat peanut butter on a multi-grain cracker, a couple of pieces of low-fat string cheese and an apple, cottage cheese with pineapple, or try a low-fat cheese microwaved in a whole-wheat pita.

Master Engineering in Environmental Engineering

Kelmarin aku telah menunggu sepucuk surat yang telah lama juga aku nantikan. Harapan aku memang besar untuk menunggu jawapan surat ini. Aku sangkakan peluang ini sudah terlepas kerana menurut pengalaman dari mereka yang lepas, kebiasaannya surat jawapan akan dikeluarkan pada pertengahan April, apatah lagi tarikh tutup permohonan itu adalah pada pertengahan Februari.

Kini aku telah diterima untuk mengikuti Program MS. Eng in Environmental Engineering. Satu program yang aku fikirkan wajar dan berprospek untuk masa hadapan. Satu program yang akan menjadi satu batu loncatan kepada aku meneroka tugasan yang lebih mencabar pada masa hadapan. Satu program yang mana tahu akan bergandingan dengan Karam Singh Walia ...... hehehe ..... siapa tahukan.

Tapi seperti yang telah diberitahu sebelum ini melalui blog lama aku, perkara seperti diatas bukan segala galanya. Hasrat aku sambung belajar sebenarnya lebih besar untuk membuktikan kepada anak anak aku yang proses pembelajaran ini tidak terhenti sehingga kita telah bekerja. Aku nak mereka faham belajar itu berterusan. Aku nak mereka faham kalau ayah mereka boleh berterusan belajar, kenapa tidak mereka. Aku nak mereka faham untuk mengecap kejayaan tidak perlu menjadi insan luar biasa cuma usaha itu sahaja yang perlu keluar dari kebiasaan.

Orang berjaya berusaha lebih dari orang kurang berjaya. Itu yang hendak disematkan didalam fikiran anak anak aku.

Julai 2006, aku nantikan dengan penuh debaran

Antara Hobi AKu

Aku ada satu hobi yang pada tanggapan Arc mungkin pelik bagi orang seusia aku. Terpulang lah kepada pandangan orang tapi bagi aku tak kerana aku seorang yang bersifat visual. Lantaran dari sifat ini aku menyenangi benda benda yang menarik dimata aku.

Aku tahu aku tak berseorangan. Aku pernah kerumah seorang blogger dengan nick Sempoi untuk mengambil karamel (ummmm memang sedap) kesukaan Arc. Suami si Sempoi, Din pun mempunyai minat yang sama dengan aku. Satu minat yang boleh dikongsi bersama anak anak terutamanya lelaki. Satu minat yang boleh dijadikan modal pujukan keatas anak anak gitu. Tapi kalau aku la, tak ada la aku sampai nak buat begitu kerana hobi ini juga memakan belanja yang besar ..... bagi aku la yang susah nak cukup bulan bulan. Aku cuma menunggu masa anak anak aku besar sedikit dan pandai value benda benda yang aku beli. Tak adalah rosak memanjang ajer benda yang aku beli dek kerana ketangkasan dia orang bermain dengan barangan hobi aku ini.

Selain dari aku menunggu anak anak aku besar aku perlu sediakan tempat simpanannya yang makan beratus ratus kalau tak ribuan Ringgit Malaysia. Pun satu sebab kenapa aku menangguhkan hobi aku ini. Cuma yang pasti jika berkesempatan aku ke gedung membeli belah Arc tahu mana nak cari aku kalau dia dapati aku hilang dari pandangan dia.

Aku dan hobi aku ............ Kereta Model Die Cast

Hari lahir dan kejutan

Pada 18hb April kelmarin adalah hari ulang tahun kelahiran Arc. Aku biasanya akan bawa dia makan ajer diluar dan belikan kek untuk dimakan bersama sama keluarga. Hadiah pun lebih kurang ajer pasal aku pun bukannya ada duit lebih banyak sangat dalam kocek bulan bulan aku. Biasa biasa ajer.

Tahun ini aku dah fikirkan apa aku nak beri dan aku tetapkan hati ajer aku nak belikan untuk Arc. Dalam tag ada juga kawan kawan Arc ajak nak buat surprise party untuk Arc kat KLCC. Apa la si Angah dengan si Fara nih. Nak buat surprise tapi canangkan kat dalam tag. Macam la si Arc tu takkan tahu.

Tengah aku berkursus tiba tiba aku dapat sms dari besfren Arc. Ajak buat surprise dinner untuk Arc. Kalau kami sekeluarga keluar makan tuh biasala kan. Tapi dengan kehadiran kawan dia mesti satu kejutan punya. Aku pun setuju ajer. Pendekkan cerita malam itu kami makan di Yankees Hut BBB. Terkejut la jugak dia tengok kawan dia dah duduk tunggu dengan kek harijadi. Malam itu kami makan enjoy dan lupa seketika pulak aku dalam diet malam itu.

Semalam pula 1hb May, ulang tahun kelahiran Azfar, anak sulung kami. Dia minta dibuatkan majlis harijadinya sebab nak panggil kawan kawan dia datang rumah. Dia siap dah beritahu kawan kawannya yang dia akan buat majlis harijadi dirumah. Walhal kami belum buat keputusan lagi tentang itu. Dia juga nyatakan keinginan nak ajak kawan kawan tadika dia dan minta aku panggil mereka bersama kedua dua ibubapa mereka. Aku tak juga katakan setuju. Diam ajer aku. Ingatkan nak buat surprise la untuk dia. Tiba tiba ajer cikgu tadika dia datang rumah, tiba tiba ajer besfren tadika dia pun datang bersama. Ingatkan la nak buat surprise.

Tapi apakan daya, Si Shasha adik dia yang masih bersekolah tadika nih pun terlepas cakap yang Cikgu dia sama anak anak dia nak datang. Maka tak jadi la surprise tuh. Dah jadi macam majlis harijadi biasa ajer. Tapi masih juga enjoy.

Si Azfar tuh pagi pagi lagi dah bersiap dah. Aku balik dari KLIA tengok dia dah siapkan diri dah. Jam baru pukul 10am dan majlis tuh hanya bermula pada jam 3.30pm. Punya la bersemangat dia. Tengah kami bersiap siapkan susunan meja dan kerusi serta makanan, dia boleh sound kat kami mana dia meja hadiah. Sabar ajerla anak aku nih. Meterialistik betul.

At the end of the day, kawan kawannya datang dan he had a great time. Malam tadi sebelum pukul 10pm dia dah terlelap. Kepenatan menunggu majlis nya serta kawan kawan dia.

Untuk Arc dan Azfar. Selamat panjang umurnya serta mulia.